If I had to describe my current mood to an innocent bystander, I would call it drunk guy on a roller coaster. I’ve been up and down, back and forth, on many things in recent months. I’m not the kind of person who looks forward to change or thinks a fresh start is anything closeContinue reading “Current Mood: Drunk Guy on a Roller Coaster”
Tag Archives: grief
How the Monkeys Saved My Birthday
I woke up in Asheville on my birthday. A few months ago after we stayed here, Other Half asked me what I wanted to do for my birthday, and I said, “Go back to the Grove Park.” I didn’t even want a present. I just wanted to sit on this beautiful rock porch (not nearlyContinue reading “How the Monkeys Saved My Birthday”
I Cried in Front of My Kids This Week
I cried in front of my kids this week. It might not seem like a big deal to you, but it’s a big deal to me on a couple of different levels. First, I remember about 10 months ago going to talk to a friend about how trapped I felt in my grief over losingContinue reading “I Cried in Front of My Kids This Week”
Grief, Fear, and New Beginnings
This week I had some things to do, exploring new opportunities, trying to figure out what I’m going to be when I grow up, or maybe more accurately, who I’m going to be when I grow up. When I’m on the verge of something new, there’s always this double-edged sword that sticks itself straight throughContinue reading “Grief, Fear, and New Beginnings”
Dark Days and Last Words
There’s an episode of Gilmore Girls where one day, Luke just goes missing for a day, and Lorelai was looking for him everywhere, trying to figure out where he was hiding, and finally she discovers that he is having a “dark day.” The day every year when he stops living his normal life because it’sContinue reading “Dark Days and Last Words”
Big Picture, Small Picture
I’m struggling with perspective. You know those pictures people make, like of the United States, or the face of the nurse that has gone viral, but it’s made up of hundreds of individual photos of people? The big picture is part of a lot of small pictures. I’ve always thought I was a big pictureContinue reading “Big Picture, Small Picture”
Fearless
Halloween is a time when it’s almost trendy to be afraid of something. I’ve only ever survived one haunted trail my whole life, so maybe not me, but some people. After Halloween, Mary Ann had sleepover with Christina Yang’s daughter. My favorite part of the kids having friends over is that sometimes kids are soContinue reading “Fearless”
From Enola Holmes to Finally:Happy
Spoiler Alert: If you read this one, I will have ruined the movie Enola Holmes for you. Don”t say I didn’t warn you. Last night I was a couch potato. I got home from work, made some dinner, and then Other Half wanted to watch a movie. He’s pretty good about picking stuff he thinksContinue reading “From Enola Holmes to Finally:Happy”
Soul Tired
There are multiple levels of tired. This is something I’m finding. There’s plain ol’ run of the mill body tired, where you’ve worked too much, or stayed up too late, or been in the sun too long. Then there’s mentally tired where you’re just overwhelmed again and again until you have such fatigue of learningContinue reading “Soul Tired”
Lord, please don’t take Willie Nelson
Disclaimer: If you are easily offended, just skip this one. I don’t have the mental fortitude to apologize. (In all seriousness, I am truly heartbroken for the families who have lost any loved ones during this time for any reason. I truly do understand how you feel, better than you know, and you are inContinue reading “Lord, please don’t take Willie Nelson”
